simply careless

so heres something written by someone i hold in high regard "so hear me now, i've enough of these chains, i know they're of my making, no one else to blame for where i stand". is this true?. am i here now because of my own doing? if i could blame anyone, anyone at all - who would it be? but i've made it clear this far that i will not do anything i dont wanna do. and true enough, i have. no matter how good the advise is, no matter how much i know it will be good for me, if i dont wanna do it. i wont.

we all age no matter what we do. but what have i done so far proves that i have not grown up. "its so clear to me now, i've enough of these chains, life is there for the taking, what kind of fool would remain in this cheap guilded cage?". is this true?. i have been spoilt - taking everything i have for granted, and the one paying for it in the end - the cost of such comfort - is me. does it really matter? how many reasons call? what can i do about it now? here, back to the 'pride' in which i hold so dearly, so proud about - eats me from the inside. i have aged, i have gotten older - but i have not grown.

"change is a stranger you have yet to know". is this true? "change is a stranger who never seems to show". so what forces you to grow? do i have to go through life - experiencing all of bitter sweet fruits to truly understand? because right about now. im thinkin' - knowing is just not enough anymore. but how do you define 'knowing' - there are things i still have to learn, and things i refuse t learn.

"its something i just cant explain, something in me needs this pain". is this true? some of us have changed our lives, some of us still have nothing to show. how strong do you really have to be? how much must you endure? how many struggles must you survive? what will you be after tasting 'desperate'?

"time and truth does not offer you comfort - does not offer you solace - it does not offer to set you free" if this is true?... what do i have to look forward for?